A Room at the Arms Hotel, Saturday Morning
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It had not been a restful night. Sleep had been hard to come by, despite the distractions Obi-Wan had attempted to mire himself in. Meditation had hardly been easier. Restless thoughts kept drifting out and into his mind; he had attempted to cast them out into the Force, and yet they persisted.
It frustrated him. He had thought he had released this part of himself, had at last been able to do what he had struggled to for years. Another lie I told myself. How many have I collected over the years?
Perhaps Qui-Gon had guided him here to expel his attachment to the Anakin that had been for good. To help him take that final step that would allow him to settle into his exile on Tatooine. But if that was the case, it was not working very well.
He had eventually given up on both sleep and meditation and settle in front of the window instead. That had helped some; he could look out over the plane of water before him and think about other matters. Such as Annileen, and her journeys. Had she seen her first ocean already? Had she marveled?
Slowly, his thoughts turned back to Tatooine, to the people he had met, and the people he was meant to guard. That, at least, settled him for a time, well past sunup and into the morning.
[[ for anakin. ]]
It frustrated him. He had thought he had released this part of himself, had at last been able to do what he had struggled to for years. Another lie I told myself. How many have I collected over the years?
Perhaps Qui-Gon had guided him here to expel his attachment to the Anakin that had been for good. To help him take that final step that would allow him to settle into his exile on Tatooine. But if that was the case, it was not working very well.
He had eventually given up on both sleep and meditation and settle in front of the window instead. That had helped some; he could look out over the plane of water before him and think about other matters. Such as Annileen, and her journeys. Had she seen her first ocean already? Had she marveled?
Slowly, his thoughts turned back to Tatooine, to the people he had met, and the people he was meant to guard. That, at least, settled him for a time, well past sunup and into the morning.
[[ for anakin. ]]
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:15 pm (UTC)He rapped sharply twice (much like he'd been awakened for much of his childhood) and stood straight, waiting for the door to open.
He didn't fidget, much as he was tempted to.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:22 pm (UTC)Obi-Wan rose to his feet. He didn't hesitate, because procrastination would not make this encounter any more pleasant; he strode swiftly to the door and opened it.
"Anakin."
Still looking almost exactly as he had the day before Obi-Wan left for Utapau. He didn't know why this surprised him this second time.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:32 pm (UTC)He was a little surprised.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:39 pm (UTC)He took a step backwards. "Come in."
He would keep his eye on Anakin. He did not particularly expect a fight, but he had come prepared for one, should Anakin turn on him again.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:44 pm (UTC)It looked just like every other room he'd stayed in at this hotel. He had no idea what he was doing.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:52 pm (UTC)Not that there could be one, he realized. If anything, this was merely a resumption of a conversation that they could not continue yesterday. That conversation had seemed to retain little in the way of rules.
Anakin was more passive now than he had always been. That didn't help, either.
He shut the door.
"I would like to believe you were attempting to explain yourself yesterday," he said.
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Date: 2015-01-04 01:57 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 02:02 pm (UTC)He offered Anakin a look that said I am a hedger raised by hedgers and you are hedging poorly rather plainly, instead.
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Date: 2015-01-04 02:13 pm (UTC)"I made poor choices," he finally decided.
Well, YEAH.
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Date: 2015-01-04 02:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 03:15 pm (UTC)That was not helpful.
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Date: 2015-01-04 03:24 pm (UTC)"No," he said, after a moment. "I should have been there. That is my burden to carry."
What else could he have said? I went to Utapau confident we would end the war, and when I came back and found my whole world in ashes? He should not have let himself be lured from Coruscant at such a crucial time. He should not have left Anakin alone; he should have known he posed such a risk.
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Date: 2015-01-04 03:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 03:35 pm (UTC)Attempting to get them both back on track, or rather, to get some assurances.
He needed rather a lot of them, about Anakin and about himself. Master Yoda would not have approved, he was well aware.
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Date: 2015-01-04 03:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 03:43 pm (UTC)He didn't ask how long.
"I see," he said, and tucked his emotions back where they should be: behind his shielding. "Palpatine--?"
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Date: 2015-01-04 05:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 05:26 pm (UTC)He nodded. "I met a man at the picnic who said he had met generations of Skywalkers," he said. "I take it Luke is well?"
He didn't ask for specifics. Nor did he particularly care about his own fate. Knowing he hadn't failed Luke, however-- that was important.
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Date: 2015-01-04 05:49 pm (UTC)I REGRET NOTHING.no subject
Date: 2015-01-04 05:52 pm (UTC)It took him a moment to realize he'd just tumbled back into their old patter, and sobered.
(The moment had been nice.)
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Date: 2015-01-04 05:59 pm (UTC)He chewed his lower lip. "That going to be a problem?"
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Date: 2015-01-04 06:10 pm (UTC)He dropped his hand. "If I do, I have no intention of being uncivil in front of the students. I would hope you don't, either."
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Date: 2015-01-04 06:13 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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