Sunset over Tatooine was always a spectacular event. This one was no different, igniting the sky in many flavors of yellow, orange, red; as always, Obi-Wan considered it for a time before settling down to meditate. The eopies had been fed. Rooh's child no longer needed any assistance getting to the choice parts. The young male had grown up fast in the weeks since his rather ill-timed birth.
Obi-Wan watched them, as well. Sometimes it was good to consider the reality of the living Force all around him.
It's not just sometimes any longer, is it? Solitude, quiet, and contemplation, that's the existence I chose. He took a deep breath and centered himself.
Of course, it's only now that I can actually practice it, Qui-Gon, that the reality of my seclusion makes itself known to me. I need to remind myself that I am here not merely to look over Luke-- that it should feel like penitence should come as no surprise to me.
It has been weeks since Annileen's departure. The locals now leave me be entirely. And Luke grows steadily.
And I'm bored. I've lived at the top of the mountain for too long. I suppose I was arrogant; I knew that it would be hard, and that would be right, and yet here I am, complaining.Qui-Gon's habit was to stay silent and just listen as Obi-Wan processed his day this way, He knew that his old friend wasn't just bored: he was lonely and deeply, deeply wounded.
He also knew there was a path that could fix at least one of those problems. He stayed silent a while longer as he waited to see if Obi-Wan was finished with his daily debrief.
Obi-Wan's mind babbled on; he found that more and more, his little one-sided chats with Qui-Gon became about the small things, the motions of the day. It was too early in his self-imposed exile, he supposed, for further great revelations to share, philosophy to rehash.
Eventually, his mind fell silent, and he felt himself passing gently into a meditative state. That, at least, was soothing.
Qui-Gon wasn't in the habit of contributing verbally and so he hoped that doing so now wouldn't be too much of a shock.
"Obi-Wan."
... and just like that, Obi-Wan's newfound peace evaporated. His head jerked up.
Qui-Gon?It was impossible to smile without physical form, but some of that warmth leaking into his voice as he projected it into Obi-Wan's head.
You are restless, my old friend.Obi-Wan had begun to give up on the notion that Qui-Gon would reply to him at all. The sudden change was bewildering, but-- it shouldn't have been unexpected.
I am learning to settle in one place, Master, he answered.
It takes time.What is time to a Jedi? Qui-Gon answered, that little smile still in his voice.
There's a place you should visit. It's important.Ah. Well. In that case. Obi-Wan sat up straighter. Master Yoda had told him to learn from Qui-Gon, when he had been told of Qui-Gon's conscious presence in the Force. Perhaps this would be the first step. He couldn't say he was sad to feel his old master's presence again; it was comforting.
What is it?Far, far away. The way will be made clear.And that was all Obi-Wan was going to get from him.
Any hope of an actual direction, at least?The wind picked up, blowing audibly across the desert. Rooh's feet shifted in the sand. A small creature skittered past noisily.
Obi-Wan took a deep breath.
Right, he thought.
How foolish of me to ask.[[ establishy! nfb, nfi, co-written with the fantastic
sith_happened. ]]