Kanan reached up to stroke his beard for a moment, looking thoughtful. Still a little troubled, but... thoughtful.

"I don't remember a time in my life that I didn't know what the Force was," he said, finally. "I couldn't have told you what it was that weekend, just that it was there for me."

He frowned a little.

"Like an old friend. It was a comfort."

The exact opposite of what he'd convinced himself it actually was, over the years.